I woke up this morning and I feel a Sea of Emotions!
I have been planning for this upcoming month for a year and it is finally here.
I leave Monday for nearly four weeks to Southeast Asia. Don’t panic, the rest of the gang will be at home with the hubby, hired help and a set of grandparents. It will be a mad house.
The agenda looks like this- China, Thailand, Cambodia and India.
It is hitting me like a brick wall right now as I stress about everything I need to get done in the next four days and school still isn’t out, I have to go to field day for Liz, baseball is in full swing, and Noah just made All-Stars, Chase is leaving to summer camps after his finals this week and Brian is at the height of his career right now.
It couldn’t come at a worse time as Murphy’s Law predicts.
On top of that, I have two huge trips to complete and one has 26 people on it that I need to start and finish. Just got the call yesterday. I can’t lose that as it is a group of college collegues (all new clients to our agency) that I have to do a great job on.
And we have Nicaragua orientation this week and leave two weeks after we get back. Can’t wait for that.
It sounds like a lot but everything has been totally manageable until this today.
I notice that I handle stress funny. All of sudden I am doing family history like it is going out of style.
Oh wait, the people are dead and have been for 350 years and all of a sudden it is top priority and driving me crazy. Perhaps it is away to hide the stress I am under.
Add to it- the last week I have been eating white carbs for some reason, I went a month straight felt better than ever then turned to the cereals and the grains again and the pizza with the kids.
Yuck it makes me feel depressed that I am off the wagon and my body feels sluggish. The rain hasn’t helped with the mood.
Today should be brighter and I will work out if it kills me and crank out my green smoothie.
All of sudden I feel like cleaning out closets that have been a mess for 1 year and I made a photo book for Brian for Father’s day. What possessed me to do that?
Weird stress huh? I am avoiding doing everything I should be doing.
I am trying to tie up loose ends and wondering if I am going to have decent internet connection to do so is another concern on my mind overthere?
I am letting the rant and rave of emotions out so I can get started today with whatever is pressing and that is mostly kids stuff all day long.
Then the question is what to wear over there. It is hotter than heck in China, monsoon season in India and I will be in a swim suit in Thailand. Shouldn’t be hard to pack for right?
We are trying to take as little as possible because there are 25 segments to this trip, plus Hillary will have 2 pieces and a carry on after living over there all semester. I can’t wait to see her on the 25th of June. I am hoping it all goes smooth but I worry about mistakes with small airlines like Cambodia Air…sounds safe huh. They have been in business a short time. Wonderful.
I worry that my hired driver and guide in India will show up and we won’t be attacked by gangster there. India has had a slew of attacks against foreign travellers lately. I worry a piece won’t work in Cambodia and we will miss India.
I worry that I made the itinerary way to agressive. I tried to fit in like half of the world into 3.5 weeks. Classic Angela style.
But I felt like I couldn’t go there and not see what I set out to see. It has been 25 years since I have been to Asia and I went three times during that period. I may never go back so this it.
Ok I feel lots better getting all of this out on paper.
Now my brain is cleared. I am blasting the WICKED soundtrack from Broadway now…..time to get going.
I should be doing less…..that is obvious and for the last year, I have done exactly that. This wouldn’t be an issue if I wasn’t leaving as the things that are stressing me out are just my normal life, the timing is just super bad for this trip. Two weeks ago nothing was happening.