Despite all of the crazy changes we have had going on at our house. The last couple of days I have been working on a group that we are putting together for 2014 to Sydney and Australia.
Designing this group has been a wonderful diversion from the nasty weather we are having and the next blizzard that is rolling around.
Here is what it looks like and we just started our promotion for it.
Since my father served his full time mission in Sydney, Australia, he has made several trips down under and I have yet to go with him. I mentioned once that my biggest regret was missing my opportunity in graduate school. I was a newly admitted student and I was afraid I wouldn’t make the grade if I went.
Years later it has become the biggest regret of my life. My dad is soon to be 75. I am going to make this trip with him if it kills me, since I don’t see him taking another group down there anytime soon. It is not like it is a convienent destination.
2. With Hillary flying the coop and out the door this week, it has given me plenty of time to reflect on my life.
Noah is skiing in SLC while Brian is working with his clients on the Ski Slopes…tough job, and so I just have two kids home right now.
We went to grab some bagels last night and Chase said….”hmmmm this is how divorced kids feel.”
I thought a lot about that…he was saying it in a postive way through his eyes of eating out and enjoying half of the chaos that a big family takes on, more one on one attention and quietness, I saw it as a negative, as lonely and boring without my whole clan together. I hate to be seperated from everyone.
With both of those kids in school and both of my homeschoolers gone….the silence, well…. is welcoming but deafning just the same.
Here is a thought I saw and it struck me as what we need to all do. It is one of my favorite reminders.
3. My first day alone yesterday found me with strep throat which is the nemisis to my skin disease and offset it in the first place. I haven’t had strep in two years and so I nursed it all day not moving much until needed. A perfect day to have zero kids, once the antibiotics hit…I was feeling much better. I am hoping now that I don’t have an outbreak of the skin.
I need my energy and it has been zapped.
4. The beginning of the week caught me with worrying and parenting about three of the four kids.
Do all parents worry themselves sick? Do you ever feel like you are doing enough and that enough is good enough? Do you ever wonder if you are doing all you can and if it really makes a difference to the kids that you are raising?
I think about that a lot. As one child was struggling and we sat and talked about it, after I quietly retreated to my room in tears, worried that our efforts aren’t enough.
I saw this quote later and it was just perfect. It helps remind me of our eternal purpose and the purpose of life on earth.
Holding my head up high today as we find joy in the journey!