Hmmm….I am wondering if I am writing this to calm my nerves and settle my mind or to come to peace with my bank account.
Kids and house cost a lot…… Really a lot.
I am not sure if my kids cost more because I expect more….or if they just cost more? Comprehendo?
Don’t expect this post to make sense. This is simply a journal entry to get it out on paper.
In the last week, I have been shelling out money left and right. Let me repeat…left and right.
Private school cost a bundle…hey we knew that going in. But it seems like every five minutes I am writing a check for something. This week basketball tryouts, last week lunch money, banquet tickets, fundraisers you name it we seem to have to buy it.
We sort of offset it with the Noah who doesn’t go to school.
Yet, his budding baseball career costs a bundle.
Hillary’s college costs a grundle….and we just paid another $75.00 to graduate and 35.00 to apply to another program. We are paying monthly tuition to China for next semester and tuition to high school for Chase.
I just paid for piano and gymnastic lessons and don’t get me started on groceries.
It seems like every team has shirts, shoes, equipment or we need new books, gas or snacks for something. Seems like we are always grabbing a bite somewhere because who has time to make a meal lately…..?
Ughhhh…..I sometimes dream of moving to a third world country. I love it when I am there, because people aren’t worrying about all of the stuff and the costs, because they aren’t crazy like we are in America.
And I contribute to the craze because I let me kids excel in the things that they love and have opportunity.
And I know in the end of their home life journey with me …..it will really come down to networking, blessings and overall attitude…and perhaps a little bit of good luck. Will it all be worth it?
But I guess we are trying to help set them up for the future….even if it drains our wallets. Then there is EFY and Drivers Ed, don’t forget football camp and all the other things that are coming up that ridiculously overpriced….
If I have to write another check today I am going to scream.
Don’t get me started on the new christmas tree either…seems like we are buying a new fake every other year…because the stupid lights go out….. $350.00 shot to Lowes.
People in the family think I am a grinch during the holidays because I kinda hate Christmas. I don’t mind lights, or the music or the family time…I just really hate the sales, black friday and the crap you have to buy. I don’t care how low the price is I would never sacrifice my Friday morning to save money…I hate the teacher gifts and all of the stupid gifts we have to come up with just to be with people…let’s donate a goat to a family instead! Perfect idea. I dream of building wells in third world countries, speaking spanish to poor little children and educating students in villages. One day my dream will come true.
Finally, I donated three bags of stuff yesterday to someone and I thought to myself…that is hundreds of dollars in clothes that were barely even worn….should we go naked now? Money wasted….or was it…..?
And if I have to donate another food dish to another event…I am going to scream about that as well…..I would rather write a check…:)
Ugghhh…and it seems like every five minutes I am fixing the same five things in this house. Is it time to move? hmmmmm a new house would be great…but who needs the debt? I have got to dump this yard that cost a trillion to keep up and yes..we still need new carpet upstairs badly…11 years old. I still would rather travel!
Totally off topic but related-
I think I am partially post traumatic stress disorder since the hurricane. It seems like so many lost everything and in a way, I think …why do we put so much time and money into everything? That little event has me thinking how I spend my life, my money and my time.
hmmmmmmm……time to get on the treadmill…..and hide my wallet and buy a goat!
Ok I am done with the rant and rave!