I have never done a fat post….basically because I don’t think I am in the obese category, but some days 25 pounds feels like 325 pounds.
And today I woke up and said….”I am fat, because I don’t delegate.”
“Delegate what?” you may ask….”Everything”. I am a terrible leader because I have a do it all attitude and I don’t delegate…well sometimes I do. Or I over delegate and then I feel guilty for the other person who feels overwhelmed and I take on even more to make them feel better.
Every morning since I have returned from Europe..I get up and start to get prepped to work out. Is it too much to get my butt on the treadmill? You better believe it…I get wrapped up in my ongoing saga of a life that right now is single mom during the week…I try to delegate..but if you have kids you know how tough it is.
I am a humanitarian worker in the morning and the night and an unpaid public affairs person during the day who wishes she could manage her schedule better. I am not sure which one to put on the back burner?
So therefore, my workout gets pushed to the side…and by like 4pm…I have had it.
I know balance is everything….and I am a tad bit unbalanced right now. Unbalanced because I didn’t know a storm was going to destroy the East coast. Unbalanced because I feel bad that I have the know how to make something happen and feel guilt if I don’t do it. Unbalanced because I volunteer endless hours for my calling in church…hoping to make a difference and really I am not sure anyone cares….but I know I will be accountable.
The thing is I would be even better and skinnier…if I would delegate and trust people more. Yesterday, I delegated, today I delegated….and I felt nervous all day long….is it better to feel fat or nervous as a delegator?
I went to get a massage yesterday….Infact, I signed up for six months of massages hoping to relax and enjoy life more.
So welcome to my diary of a delegation! My first post to launch me back to balance and raise a glass and toast to delegation.