This weekend, I photographed my friends wedding reception. I had booked their entire wedding through our travel agency to Beaches Turks and Caicos resort. They had done all of their formals on location, so I basically photographed the reception party.
I won’t lie- I would have gone to the Turks and Caicos and photographed them as requested, if the resort didn’t require their own photographer. But it didn’t work out. They are our good friends and sometimes I feel a sense of obligation to those we love. He worked for Brian for years, so I committed to Saturday night.
Don’t get confused-
No, I am not shooting professionally right now as I try to continue my hiatus and continue to concentrate on family and children versus talent and hobby.
But man it was hard! Hard because I was reminded me how much I really loved shooting professionally.
Two months ago, I photographed this wonderful couple out on the beach and again, I was reminded how darn much I loved shooting.
It really comes down to this- I had to come to a point and decide if I wanted to be distracted by talent or focus on family and it hasn’t been easy.
Sometimes our “Strengths can become our weakness.” (Dallin Oaks)
I dropped shooting for the newspaper- no love loss there, I purposely jacked the prices so high on this years weddings that people went elsewhere. I haven’t posted to my photography Facebook page in 6 months,I let my webpage go, I turned down every non-profit event which I usually love to support and aid their causes. I have just been lying low…real low.
Even Saturday night, a women came up to me to hire me for her daughters wedding and in the past I would have been ultra pumped. I downplayed every bit of it….and ended with “Hey just let me know, we will figure something out.” I have referred most business to my photography friends.
My new rules- I am taking things on a case by case basis!
I still will shoot family and individual portraits when needed. Those are easy and not stressful. I may shoot a wedding if I want to!
And I admit, it has been nice, super nice to have sooo much more FREE TIME not being glued to my computer processing images. The part no one really sees.
I have felt the blessings of my choices over and over again.
I have been shooting with my iPhone more, so my back isn’t broken from my bag. I love playing with textures with no pressure.
Yes, I think I love my passion of photography again.
Yes, I am still going to buy the Nikon D800 as soon as it comes in stock at a whopping $3200.00…no doubt about it. I will still add to my bag of goodies. But my hiatus has been nice, but I am pretty positively sure that I have lost every client I once had.
Sometimes I think I have lost my mind choosing motherhood over another part time business. Like right now, I can’t get excited about picking up my house or even making breakfast.
But I do admit my blessings are overflowing and my time is quickly ticking with my children. I feel them aging and pulling further and further from me as they grow up and launch into their exciting new worlds.
I love the bed time stories and the games. I love my exercise time and my blog time. I love cooking and even doing yard work on occasion.
But getting behind that lens is so dang powerful and tempting! Just saying…..